Yesterday my 2-year-old fancy rat Paul passed away. He was black and white and had a bubbly personality, he LOVED food and loved to explore and run around. He had a nice life and was acting like usual. The night before he passed away he was running around, eating and drinking. He went to bed and when I got up for school he came out of his hut to give me a kiss. When I got back from home I was expecting to be greeted by him but when I lifted his hut up his body was curled up in there. My other rat, Kenny was snuggled up with his body.
It hurt badly to see him pass. It made me feel horrible because I wasn't even there I his final hours of life.After we buried him my rat Kenny seems to be fine. He isn't displaying any signs of grief or anything.I don't know why he is taking this so easy. I'm not sure what to do now, all day yesterday I cried till I was emotionally numb. Today I was numb about it too; telling myself has passed and he's happy yet. I have moments when I feel incredibly guilty for his death and not being there. I don't know what I should do to recover from his lost.
If anybody has any suggestions please tell me. It tears me apart since he's gone yet his cage-mate seems to not be affected.